quotemadness:

“Wasn’t that the definition of home? Not where you are from, but where you are wanted.”

— Abraham Verghese (via quotemadness)

marimopet:

being soft, gentle and warm is a different kind of radical. the ability to allow yourself to be vulnerable is very powerful

(via inkmaze)

‪Sometimes I still dream abt my ex’s n stuff, but so often it’s dreams about us just. Hangin out, both on good terms and we happy ‬

‪Feels bad when I wake up n realise that’s not always the case‬

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‪My chest has been aching for hours and there’s no way to stop it. Some days are just better than others ‬

1/3/18, 4:52pm

For memories sake

Being replaced is a weird feeling.

You asked for this, asshole. I guess I miss the good times

26/03/18

Even though living in chch for 10 months didn’t work out for me, I still had memories there, and get homesick(?) occasionally.

🍃

I miss the weather, and the tea place, the hills and longboarding, among other things

24/03/18, 4:05pm

When ur just tryna go to a pub quiz but ur rapist is there so u have a cheeky panic attack and vom in the loo? Classic

20/03/18, 7:24pm

Could not describe to you the emotions of the bonfire under the starlight. Too many and complex to understand. I’m thankful I have a diverse friend group

19/03/18, 3:34am

I dream about you sometimes, and I hope you’re doing alright

2/03/18, 1:55am

Turns up the shower heat

22/02/18, 10:33pm

The days where you don’t know why you’re sad can be so much worse than those when you know

13/02/18, 10:41pm

Wheow I’m having lotsa visual hallucinations right now

Normally it’s shallow waves/water but the shadows on the wall and the curtains are creeping along

6/02/18, 3:33am

On this note I’m still drinking but I’ve had them e last week of not being sober. Is that a bender

2/02/18, 10:42

I just took a truly massive bong hit, and then just absolutely FELL off the window frame

29/01/18, 11:45pm

Burning hands, drag me under

28/02/18, 11:18pm

I can’t be that person for you, no matter how much I want to

28/02/18, 2:16am

Being back in Wellington reminds me of the bittersweet memories I have of this place :-/ 😞

Actually? The ONLY memories I have of here are with alex :^(

This fucking sucks, we drinking directly across a the road from the Japanese place where A n I had sushi when we first met. Ok I’m drink now

“Not implying we’re gonna but. The new Lorde album would be a good break up album”

JOKES ON BOTH OF US

(It’s fu King good tho 😤😭😭😭)

21/01/18, ?:??

Constantly distracting myself with people and things.. I see myself dipping into tomorrow’s spoons too often and I’m crashing

Im exhausting myself and I kno it but I gotta be drunk n distracted. My friends 21st is the perfect excuse because I said Id look after him

Anyway, everyone; I’m drunk in a casino n my feet are real sweaty

09/01/18, 9:01pm

The photos of my ex feel like a completely different person to who I experienced over the last month or two

02/01/18, 11:00pm

Sobbing over my Uber eats

I’ve had 5 people die this year and I couldn’t fucking handle six Jesus Christ. Especially not you.

I just want everyone to be ok and not suicidal and I’m mad cause I care so much and

I’m on 3x my zopiclone dose tonight so I can sleep

I’m furious and hurt and sad and guilty and

26/12/17, 11:58pm

Sometime u gotta lie on floor and just listen

16/11/17, 2:21am

So weird how I can go out and do a really cool thing but even tho I’m enjoying it and appreciating inside I’m still like mmmm I’m depres

17/12/17, 7:29pm

I just ate 1,482 calories, but haha HEY! who’s counting amirite

12/12/17, 1:21am

The fantasy me is so much better than the reality me

20/11/17, 11:29pm

Never fast enough to switch that song off

12/12/17, 10:57pm

I don’t know if I’ll ever love “the right way” again, and I’m devastated over that loss, but accepting it means I can move on to love my own way

Even after four years of dating I keep second guessing myself.

What if I never felt partner love(?) at all?

How would I know how something feels If I’ve never felt it?

I love everyone the same, but where’s the line of “partnership”??

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Maybe I’m just fucked up and autistic haha